Facing and Integrating our Darkness to become more Light.
The beautiful image above is by Rassouli
August 2018, the opportunity to truly powerful, embracing the dark and light in us.
I know that facing up to our pain and the cause of our pain is frightening and can be excrutiating, but what is the other option but to remain in pain anyway leading to more suffering.
The first time I had a session with a healer or therapist, I was so frightened, so afraid to feel even more pain than I already did. But it was worth it, as it was only for a short moment and after the tears and thunderstorms came great calm and as I worked more on myself, great love, acceptance and forgiveness for myself and others. I really felt and feel now that I am more open to my light when I receive healing and work on myself and meditate.
I found peace by doing this and I certainly do not regret the hours and money spent on it as it was all worth it!
So in August we find the opportunity to go deep within again as we approach another Eclipse, a solar eclipse at the next New Moon on the 11th August, and as the sun begins its descent towards the end of the year. Time to harvest the fruit of your labour, time to prepare to dig deep again to create anew for the next cycle.
From darkness comes light
From the great nothingness
All is born.
Do not fear the dark
It is your mother
It is from the non-thing
Was and is born
Womb of darkness
We have turned from it
For so long
Search and search for us
Turn your eyes inward
See the cosmos
In your blood
Hear the song of the Universe
Pulsing in your breast
Ever singing, singing, singing!
Merge through the darkness
And plunge out in glorious Light!
Fly on the wings of love
Show us your face
The Billion faces of the Divine
Ever dancing, dancing, dancing!
I was informed by my mentor that I needed to connect with the First and Second dimensions as this would help me to anchor myself more substantially here and to also connect with the demons and beings in the woods where I go walking.
I was a little worried as I have met people who have had “demon attacks” and have been informed that I have been subject to a demon attack too, which was very uncomfortable. So the idea about having anything to do with demons except for clearing and transmuting them, and sending them back to their optimum place whilst giving healing treatments to my clients, was a little perplexing.
What if they get stuck on me and play games with my energy like they have done with my clients? What if they block my connection with my soul and interfere with my work? These were the first thoughts which came to my mind when I was invited to investigate these realms and beings further.
I decided to meditate and connect in my garden first before connecting with these beings in the woods. I also knew that I had to deal with any fear I had about doing this as it would just create exactly what I would want to avoid.
I set the intention to connect with the First and Second dimensions and then connected with Earth and all consciousness within Her, including all the elements. Before all of this I opened up my heart and dived into love: I needed to trust and do this with faith allowing love to be my compass.
I did not have a very visual experience but I felt different movements, densities and consciousness. I could sense water movement and the solidity of crystals and the difference this feels to the organic soil. I could sense the life teeming within the soil itself. It was not scary or frightening in any way. What I also sensed were what I called destructive or transformative forces: the breaking down of substances to their original chemicals and elements: this is the interpretation my mind gives.
The next day I went for my morning walk with King. As we entered the woods, I acknowledged the tree guardians and asked for help from my guides and angels then gave intent to communicate with and connect with the demons in the ground.
I did not sense any horrible thoughts or energies, just curiosity from these beings which in my mind’s eye appeared as dark forms with bright eyes (hahaha, this is from my own database of what I think demons would be!) and small. I opened my heart and thanked them for letting me connect with them and asked them to show me anything they would like. I also radiated love to them and acceptance for all they are and this was actually really easy! I let go of all my judgements and previous experiences of demons.
They said they could be mischievous, but they tend to leave humans alone. They followed me as we walked through the woods and I would say, they are not unlike the sprites, fairies and elementals of forests. They are just different from these other beings. They were surprisingly light, not heavy like matter but not quite as light filled as the other elementals above. They seemed to enhance how I felt so the love and acceptance grew stronger. I realised later on when I connected more with them that this was the first clue that they gave me about their true nature which I write about below.
It has taken me two weeks since my first connection with them to complete this piece of writing because I was concerned that perhaps I was wrong about my impressions and I write this short piece in the hope of un-demonizing demons.
Their job is to help in the deconstruction or dissolution of physical (matter) or energetic substances, so like bacteria and fungi, they help with the breakdown of matter like dead animals into their constituent chemicals and atoms. They help with the deconstructive aspect of everything including matter and energy so that rebirth and a new start can occur. In the dissolution of matter, they are not involved in the destruction, it has already occurred.
They enhance and expose existing emotions be they negative or positive. Intensifying them, especially what is deemed as negative is what gives them their bad name. But they provide a great service to us by the exposure of these hidden strong feelings.
How are thoughts, feelings and emotions transmuted and why would we want them to be? I believe they are transmuted by their exposure into our conscious minds, out of the depths of our subconscious and also through unconditional love and acceptance. If we are unaware of the intense anger we have towards someone, we may continue our dysfunctional actions towards them or destructive nature towards ourselves. When we are aware that these emotions exist, we can choose to investigate the root of them, get some help or healing and resolve them.
This is an objective gift that Demons have. They do not choose to enhance negative or destructive thoughts and feelings, they also enhance positive emotions as I experienced above. I do not believe it is through choice, it is just their nature to do so.
Demons do not and are not the originators and generators of emotions and feelings but we are. Demons enhance all emotions, thoughts and feelings and also absorb them.
I was shown a demon when suffused with light and love transforming into a light being, which is an entity which emits light and is beyond personality and ego. All beings are constantly evolving and although I know this, I was surprised to perceive a demon changing into what we would consider the opposite of its nature.
They showed me that they are as essential as beings of light, in a different way and they work with Gaia and elementals and light beings too. It is just us humans who interpret them as evil and separate them from the light.
Demons in their complete unadulterated state, do have light and can hold space, just like angels and light beings do, for anything to be created. But if you think about it, for creation or anything to appear in matter, it requires the use of energy and also available matter which may have to change its state for this. Demons help in the shift of energy and matter from one substance and state into another for creation to occur. Without demons this world and dimension would not be possible.
Demons are not evil. However the existence, over the last human cycle of separation consciousness giving rise to concentrated hate, rage, fear, despair, rape, control, manipulation and murderous thoughts have created monsters because the Demons cannot repel all these feelings. Where do you think all these emotions go when we constantly replay them over and over again and when some healers tell you to give it all to Gaia? Do you think the Earth just magically transforms them? They have to go somewhere and they are absorbed by the Demons who are then transformed into our own man made monsters. These are the Malevolents (which is what I call them, Demons twisted by our own emotions and also manipulated by dark magicians, it seems as if they force the Demons to constantly create tiny black holes which creates chaos in the energetic fields and continuums) which you may find attacking people. These attacks are I believe to do with karmic resolution over our own lifetimes of possibly using and twisting Demons to control others.
Our nasty thoughts are also what create dark and horrible energies, devoid of light. These too are Dark Energies, our stuff created by us, gathering more and more pain and pushing the light out. They are like unbalanced black holes, ripping and tearing everything around it and running amok.
During civilisations of high consciousness and love like the Lemurian and early Atlantean ones, there were no dark Demons or Malevolents, there were no dark beings and dark forces because separation consciousness had not taken hold. There were just the natural Demons following their purpose.
It is only through awareness of our shadow side (past pain and trauma), the integration of all our parts lost through our pain with love and acceptance can we truly appreciate what we are: powerful creators, creating in this dimension and also many others. What we focus on is what we create, let us take responsibility for it.
It is time for balance to once again be created here. So many healers and energy workers find themselves working to clear and transmute the twisted Demons but everyone needs to take responsibility for their own thoughts and feelings, awaken to their Divine Nature/Soul and become whole again.
Demons would then not be the Demons we have come to experience because of our own pain: dark, nasty, horrible but the natural Demons who are light, transformative, helpful and essential, part and parcel of all the beautiful forces and cycles of nature.
Ananda is a crystal-crazy therapist, an